in a uhaul again

moving again. it's my FOURTH time doing this in one year. jeez. at this point, i haven't even really unpacked things from the last time. my closet is full of four-month-year-old broken down boxes that i'm using again! Recycle. Reduce. Reuse. 

so i am moving to Los Angeles. i hope i don't get too depressed there and move back to the bay area. but knowing me...i probably will. so goodbye! forever! except maybe temporarily! 

seriously though, maybe forever. whoa that's sad. 

remember these??

so everyday after kindergarden, i would get on the bus and go home. have some cheese and a juice box and park myself in front of the television were i was promptly sucked into a plethora of 30 minute shows on some kids channel. first came this one:

sorry for the crappy quality. good thing i was only five when i watched this show. cuz, man, it sucks.


followed by the lil' bits:

a n t h e m s

i'm leaving berkeley a week from this saturday. and this time, it may be forever.

i've been thinking a lot about how much this place has changed on me. first, foreign and new, and then home and safe. i've been listening to a lot of music that encapsulates my era of youth in this wonderful place. And all of it is painfully nostalgic. the first song was something i played in my doom room as i stared at the bunk bed above me. That next year, it played from my speakers in the room i shared with mallory, and anthems, when i introduced it to simon - played as the two of us sat on our backs, together on my bed, listening and melting away. it always gives me the same feeling. and when i listen to it ten years from now, i'll think of this town and how i was young once. listening to these songs makes me feel so old. but i'm not. my memories are already starting to fade, only to be brought back by the music i have once loved. 

this next one is completely reminiscent of my time in cloyne, when i stopping over-thinking and started just being happy. the song made me feel very momentous "our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up."

Arcade Fire - Wake Up
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i'll always feel that this song is my peaceful phase. walking through campus and not being happy and not being sad. just completely content. this song reminds me of the dorms and i don't know why because i listen to it always, but i think it is because it was in that movie that came out when i was a freshman. anways, it's so nostalgic i can hardly stand it.

and then there was bjork. all the songs i've posted up here are my "sitting alone in my room songs," where i feel a little bit unsettled but at peace with it. this song is beautiful and it is my 6th most played song in my itunes library, downloaded may 6, 2007. just listening to this song reminds me of the smell of my room at the time. strange huh? she sang this at the shoreline when i saw her may 18th. i drank a bottle of wine wine, purchased underage from sam my favorite liquor store attendant, in the back of alec's car as rob, alec and i drove to the show. this performance is from that show. i was laying on a blanket on some grass way up high feeling the magic like everyone else. 

i love the valley OH!

i'm coming home. 

learning to love you more

i just got this book in the mail. it's miranda july's project with her partner harrell fletcher. A collaborative public art project, learningtoloveyoumore, requests ordinary assignments from ordinary people, who then post them to the website. What is showcased in the book is the curated version - the photos and written assignments being the best of the best. I find them so utterly real, which makes me think about the people who submitted them. the assignments range from "draw a constellation of someone's freckles" to "take a picture of your parents kissing." what comes out is not this uber-stylized hipster art, which is so common in similar projects today. it's just unadulterated life that, so far, has moved me to tears a couple of times. i'm such a sucker for that shit.

for the full project check out their website. 

random coupling

[via] the selby

in wonderland

someone showed this to me yesterday. it's a little repetitive but i like it anyways. alice in wonderland was not only my 'mean' nick name in grade school, but my favorite movie. 

pipilotti rist installation

when i visit talene in ny, i am eager to see an installation by pipilotti rist called 'pour your body out.' essentially, it is an atrium surrounding 'sculptural seating islands' where digital videos are being projected around the bodies occupying the center. the images are manipulated in a way that makes the viewer feel part of nature and yet alienated from it. curator klaus biesenbach talks about her work: 

Ohhh...nine

1. obviously lose weight/get healthy/bla bla

i started going to ironworks which is a couple blocks from my work. they have rock walls there!! GNARLY 

2. talk to strangers (in the best sense): STORY. As i was riding bart to get to NYE in the city, i sat down next to a young woman who was knitting a baby blanket. i was curious what stitch she was doing and we got to talking. long story short, she told me all about her wedding in the santa cruz mountains, i shared camping stories with her, we laughed about a tranny sitting opposite us i.e. when we parted ways at 24th and Mission, i felt like i had legitimately made a friend. so.....that being said, i am going to try to be more open to friendly conversation in 2009. who knows who i will meet!

3. No more eating in my car: yes, i do that. i think i've said enough.